Well...its been soo long since ive updated me b log...haha been damn lazy....ANYWAYS....ntn fun hppens...well the sme boring life...i wanted to watch new moon wif me frens lst fri...bt me MOM wnt let me...furthermre me granny cme wif me cuzzie...wel...now i wanna watch donnoe wanna go wif hu...wanna go wif her den scared she dowan...hais...WADEVA AR....hmm...well im really unsure and confuse bout smeting....its abt her....i...IDK..i m starting to fall fer her..bt smeting in me says I GT NO HPE WIF HER....hmm...im damn confused....i really gt big plans fer the nxt relationship...wanna do things i neva gt a chnce to...dat is if it happens...if love accept me again...ANYWAYS.....love aint GOIN Timpt fer me rite now...or....isit..idk...haha....well whats impt is....IM GOIN TO KL!!!!!!AHHHH!!!!hahaha...yay...goin shopping...and to relax and enjoy....wanna get away frm everyting in s'pore juz fer awhile lh...to relax and to cme bck and stress again...haha...well...idk abt me frens bt im really REALLY terrified bout me results....hais...ANYWAYS....now i haf a "body idol"haha wth...yea...i wan my body to be like taylor lautner...bust must haf zero fat like rain...den itll be cool...wanna strt working out slowly...im buying dumbells soon...hell yea...den workout at hme evrydae....hell yea...well dats all...going t o tlk casual wif miss adorable...hehe...i havent wrk me magic yet haha...bt wen i do i hpe it wrks....dats all...enjoy ppl...smile always.. :)

YAY!!!...FINALLY....i got meself a new phne!!!haha yea yea...its the NOKIA 5530...well atleast its a phne...tot of buying SONY SATIO...bt is F*king EX!!!!its close to $700...bt this 1 is ouhkae....haha its sleeq and its touchscreen soo...yea..haha..well gt to upgrade me psp to ver 5.5...gt soo many things yest haha...well i am soo happy...well...yest i realise dat...no matter hw bad i am towards me parents...thay are always....they are always showering me wif love...well...i wish dat i cn tke it all bck...ANYWAYS...i feel sad fer YUSRI...well i feel his pain really...well i hpe fer the best fer him...i really wanna c THEM TOGETHER...i knw ill hppen...bt it tkes a lil mre time...YUS if ure reading dis...chill...in time dude...in time...well...now i haf to wait fer few days so that me sim crd cn strt functioning again.. :)..haha den cn txt dis ADORABLE girl hehe whose nme is a secret u knw who u ar miss adorable haha...well...i had a great week end...haha...and i cnt wait...fer dec...haha mayb goin KL...iDk haha...hmm...dats abt it...haha see ya ;)

Well...its been soo lng since me lst post hehe...been bz dis past few days...haha...WORKING!!!...which it last fer three days oni...haha...well...its was tiring...bt fun..at least gt experience...haha...i noe hw me dad will feel afta wrk at least...haha...hmm...i gt $75 pay...spent $55 on me 8 gig mem crd fer me PSP...well saving the rest...ouh and YAY!!! i TINK I AM GETTING A NEW PHNE!!!!fyi...hehe...soo excited...well yest afta wrk...i went out wif ril to TM...well juz to get out of the hse at least..haha...tot of buyin a new guitar...bt...went 2 yamaha...the prices are life SOO EX!!!!...so i tot nvm...haha..well..i am gonna mke a new vid...YAY!!! dis t yme wif RIL AND WAN.... haha lookin forward to it...dis time the sng will be by KOL...USE SMEBDY...will be me secnd vid...if u wanna watch the 1st...its on me FB profile...do enjoy..hehe...well itll be nxt week...haha had lots of fun these past few days...its great...haha...lookin forward to mking mre vid..i am oso needing help in lyrics writing...i suck at dat...but i love to write...haha weird me....haha..hmm...well...i am tryin to play any of GABE'S sng...bt its damn impposible...haha anyways...dats abt all...be writing soon ppl!!tata!!!...HAF FUN WITH WADEVA URE DOIN JUZ DN DO ANYTHING STPID KAYS PPL!!!

Well...TGIF!!!and fri de 13!!...haha its actually ntn special...its like every othr fridays haha...i love fridays cz...well get to hang out wif me mates afta prayers...haha get to slack..and haf fun...well i really cnt wait fer mon...coz well me and me god sis...THE AWSOME FATIN!!!(well she told me to write dis haha)are gonna do a recording...its me first tyme and we are gonna b on youtube!!!haha...bt...well afta watching GABE BONDAC...i lyk having second thoughts haha...bt itll still go as plan...haha and oso gonna do a recording with RIDZY and RIL!!!haha...im soo exited...cnt wait fer mondae!!yay...hell yea...haha...well FATIN decided we gonna perform 2 is better than 1..haha...wif a lil chnge cz well we tranpose the sng a lil so it fits our voice key...haha...itll be fun...GREAT FUN!!!...haha...well ANYWAYS...RIDZY introduce to this great singer/guitarist... GABE BONDAC...he's like soo fucking good!!!haha hes nw me current idol...haha so wanna sing well like him...haha yea...well ive got lots of training to do to sound good like him....DAMN IM EXCITED FER MON...haha...i wonder hw many hits ill get haha...i mean WE get haha...well i plan on buying a proper equipment to record...haha or better yet make an ALBUM(not photo album fyi...haha)...wow...haha well datll be all...hpe you guys cn c me on youtube...im soo damn EXCITED!!!haha...see ya...WOHOO!!!

Well another boring dae 2 dae....juz sit around...jamming on me guitar...finally able to pluck..am perfecting the sng dust in the wind...nw i fell in love with the sng HEY,SOUL SISTER...BY TRAIN...its a relaxing sng...it tkes me mind off everything...ANYWAYS...the list is cming of great...soo far 35 things to do...well therell be mre...one of which in me list is dat to stare into the stars...well...it calms me down...haha right now i am finding things to calm meself down...haha i dowan me negative self cme bck...altough it cmes bck once in awhile...hais...ANYWAYS...yay tmr fri...gonna go prayers wif me mates..den slack afta dat...well itsfun being wif dem...WE...are a bunch of noisy ppl...haha...always up to smething crzy ar stupid...its fun...being around them mkes me feel lyk me again...i cnt sit alone...or ill strt thinking negative things again...haha WEIRD ME!!...well anyways...im soo goddamn bored...2 dae yus and ridzy neva online...haha soo bored...haha...hmm....mayb gonna blow bubbles or smeting to pass the time...anw yay...its dark and its raining...wohoo...its a nice cold weather...cn play me guitar...itll be soo cool...haha...i wonder wen me hair gonna grow...i wanna keep lng hair...nt soo lng...bt shoulder length cn liao hor...hmm...well wann continue wrking on me list...well datll be all...SEE YA :)

Well...2dae is as boring as ever....a lil pssed off though bec of me mom....damn lh...i wanna go gym oso cnnt...hais...ANYWAYS...hmm...i am finally gaetting the hang of the sng dust in the wind...haha its a seemingly IMPOSSIBLE sng...bt i nearly ace it haha wohoo!!!...ouh n cn oso play 2 is better than 1...its a nice sng...haha...memories....sweet memories...haha...ANYWAYS...again...haha i am writng lyrics for me new sng...an english sng...well...this is the best tyme to write coz...well...i cn get many i deas...due to me status rite nw...haha....hmm...me god sis gave me a gd idea..well since i haf lots of free tyme on me hands...she told me to make a list of things i wanna do b4 i die...haha...hmm...it is a good idea...haha...there are many things i wanna do...too many i hav to sit and think bout it...btw...IVE TYPE DIS POST B4...BUT ME STUPID NET DIED HALF WAY...NOW MUST TYPE AGAIN...DAMN IT...ANYWAYS...well im gonna include to be a proffessional musician...erm...and...aiya many mre lh...well am feeling rather calm now...nt lyk yest...depress..well im out of the WHIRLPOOL for todae dat is...hpe it wnt drag me in...well...dats all...i hope to be calm and happy...i hpe everybdy will osos feel the sme as me...jhaha smile alwyas ppl...well gonna start on me list nw....soo...LIVE LIFE TO ITS FULLEST PPL...LIVE IT WIF NO REGRETS....AND SMILE AND STAY HAPPY ALWAYS!!!

Well...for once..i knw shes right...i wen to her blog juz nw and read her post..im shock...well...she still haf feelings fer me...bt dats nt the point...the point is....she right...i haf to let go...ITS IMPOSSIBLE!!!!...my past is like a whirlpool...ive lety go b4....but me past keep draging me bck....in other words...im going in circles...ive let everything go...i did...bt it cme bck....damn...its hard...bt im trying even harder....well i realise dat...mayb im gd in helping ppl wif love...bt maybe love is not meant for me...i noe..IN TIME....dat special sme1 will cme...well till den...i dowan to fall in love...its not that i am afraid to be hurt again...well...i wanna spend tyme wif me frens fam and meself...bt i cnt be sure...i am kinda of promiscuous...haha...hais..haha...well all i cn do nw is well juz GO WITH THE FLOW...in life dat is....and wait...ppl often sae gd things cme to ppl who waits...well i believe in that...its proven...lyk wen i waited for her rly wen i juz gt her num...welll...i donoe hw lng it took but...in the end she cntcted me and...there we ar....together...haha..or or lyk right nw...waited fer 1 mnths+ for a new phne...and nw...im finally getting it...WOHOO!!!...but its a mayb dat is...hais...haha...anyways...i haf let go...i juz need a lil mre TIME...well being patient is the least dat i cn do....haha dtas all...i hpe things will b for the better for me and every1 in life...:D

Ive made a stupid mistake 2dae...i mde her mad..i should hav known she wasnt using me bt treat me like a true fren...but i was stupidly wrong....u...if ure reading dis...i apologise again...i didnt mean 2 sae those things...its juz dat....i was angry at dat tyme and u said u tknk cntct me again...den everything becomes a mess....well im really really sowie....i really really hpe i cn win bck ur trust and i cn become ur true fren...i want to b...bt afta wad hppen...well i tink she doesnt want me to b...hais..wad a mess...i really hpe she forgive me...i cnt live like dis...well i cn live lyk dis if i hurt any of me frens...it will hurt me inside to...i juz dowan dat 2 hppen...bec...idk...i treat me frens...who are close lyk family..and if one is hurt it seem as though uve hurt a family member....i really treasure me relationship wif frens and fam...bec w/o them...ill be a lonely soul...i really really hpe i cn win bck her trust...im so regretting this...i cn do things right even when i was her bf...always mde her sad...i mde her cry...wad kind of a bf am i...bt wen ive started to cnge...it was too late....well nw i kinda haf second toughts wen wanting to haf a relationship....well im srry again....dats all...

Well...weekends are kinda fun...as in i nvr go out bt mostly sit at hme and jam wif me dad...haha...he tought me lots of new sngs to play on me guitar...well basically....weve bonded lh....me bond wif me dad is damn strong...i juz dowan it break....me dad is lyk me best friend...like a brother...well he's understanding...and always protecting me frm me mom's nagging..haha...well im trying to learn new 2 new sngs...one is for yusri...the 14th theme frm d gray man....and the other a mre complecated sng...its dust in the wind...by kansas...its a nice relaxing sng....i am osos tryin to learn the sng 2 is better than 1....it really brings me bck me sweet memories wif her....well dats all that is left wif me rite nw...ANYWAYS....i was soo happy cz we(me and me dad) bonded again like usual...haha he shre stories of his past as a teen...hw he enjoy playin wif his band and stuff....i envy him...he got so many experience whereas me...hais...im ntn...its weird hw me dad gt lots of "fans"...so as me mom...bt nt me haha wth...well whatever it is...i hpe to live me life happy...wif me frens...and fam...and espescially me DAD...haha..w/o him...im ntn...hais...hpefully i cn play de sng i wanted to...well thts all fer nw...LONG LIVE ROCK AND ROLL!!!

Well...since yesterday i was bz...i am unable to update me blog so dis post is counted as yest post lh...well yest was great...i was able to go out wif me frens...well...FINALLY!!!...we got free movie tickets from CARE...so well ridzy invited me and haziqah to go...well...then last min the care teacher say gt another extra 5 mre ticket....so we invited shahril,ismail,zaf,ekhsan and shea...i wanted to invite yusri....ridzy tried calling him but engage.....soo...we juz proceed lh...we went to vivo to watch the movie...and believe it or nt..it was in the mrning...haha its lots of fun...there are oso othr students frm pasir ris sec there...mostly in the lower sec ar...we were told that there will b 2 movie screening....but the aftanoon will b wif de greenview students....so i tot k lah...afta first movie....go haf lunch and go hme...then afta dissmissing the pasir ris sec students...1 of the CARE teachers gathered me and me frens and a few others and made an announcement....we were to join them to watch the second movie!!!...haha..we were shock...i mean..2 movies in one day...WOW!!...haha its a movie marathon...well...sort of..haha the first movie was...IMAGINE THAT...starring eddie murphy.....haha its damn funny and adorable haha...well the second movie...SISTER'S KEEPER..is soo damn sad man...i nearly cried...can any1 believe dat??haha...haha well...afta the movie...we went window shoppin for awhile...den me and me mates decided to eat at banquet...at 1st there was abt 8 ppl...den all decided to go hme...sad....den let 3 ppl oni...ril,me and ridzy...haha..afta eat...we den decided to go hme lh...since its getting late...haha....so we hop on the train and then we split up...haha had soo much fun!!hpefully there will be a nxt time...haha a sequel to the story.....haha thats all folks...haha

Well today is the same as always....sitting around...jamming wif the guitar...haha...n even juz blow bubbles wen im really damn bored...But...i notice smeting....i notice dat im slowly letting go of my past relationship...slowly letting go of HER...dats great...im making progress...ever since we broke up...ive neva been able to let go...well of cause....she was me first love....ppl say its hard to let go of your 1st love...well...its true...its bloody damn hard...but thankfully...i haf frens who stood by me wen i am sad...they cheer me up...gave me support...gave me bck me strength...if it wasnt for them...i might still be lost...haha...Well...ntn exiting hppen to dae....juz the sme old sme old....haha...but im kinda tired...coz i woke up 645 am...idk y i woke up so early...haha...then go online...chat wif yus...help him a lil...haha...heres smething ironic...haha ppl sae im good at helping ppl wif their relationship...which mostly succeed fyi...bt look at my own relationship...it ended in pieces....haha dats y...i love helping ppl...i love 2 c others succeed...i dun want dem to end up lyke me...haha...i oso enjoy though...well..im helpin yus nw...i really hope he menage to win the heart of the girl of his dreams...haha kn yus!!haha well dats it fer 2 dae...tata bloggin world...will be bck soon!!!

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